September 28, 2012

• Day 21

  Day 01- A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
  Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with the longest.
  Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
  Day 04 - A picture of a habit you wish you didn't have..........
  Day 05 - A picture of your favourite memory.
  Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
  Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
  Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
  Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
  Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
  Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
  Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
  Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
  Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
  Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
  Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
  Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
  Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
  Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
  Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
  Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
  Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
  Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
  Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
  Day 25 - A picture of your day.
  Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
  Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
  Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
  Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
  Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

  My Older/Younger Brother's Grave
  

  

  
  My sister Cassie is such an amazing photographer - it's a little bit perverse. Anyway, no, you are not looking at a flower on concrete. This is the grave of my baby brother who died in 1980. We're pretty sure it's SIDS even though he was born with some kind of heart defect. I was told the defect was congenital, and that he wouldn't be able to play sports when he got older. Stuff like that, but nothing that would shorten his life.

  I went to stay with my mother over... Memorial Day I think it was. I will never forget when she woke me up and six in the morning and said, "Get dressed. We're going to see your brother." When we got to the cemetery, I remember asking my mom a lot of questions about him. Things like "What did he look like? Was he born at the same place I was? Did he have red hair, or did have blond hair (only two options in this family)? Did he get brown eyes or green eyes (again, only option here)? How old would he be now? (30) Can I see a picture of him? Do you think Alex and Penelope remember him?" Maybe I asked too many questions. But c'mon, this is a brother I've never even met.

  I really don't wish I could forget him so to say, only what became because of him. And because of whatever "heart defect" he had, every new baby in my family has to be admitted to the NICU for twelve days for extensive testing and observation. I will never forget visiting my brother's third baby in the NICU  one afternoon, noticing a 1lb2oz baby in the crib beside my brother's baby, then returning the next day and that crib being prepped for a new baby. 

  My younger/older brother's grave... absolutely something I want to forget.

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